Not Ready

I'm never ready to open edits from beta readers.

I'm not ready right now, I'm tired and my coffee is wrong and my eye is twitching. 

But, once I dive in, I realize I know how to swim, I've done this before, I know how to do this. 

My heart is racing a little, the music in my ears isn't quite right, but this is living today. 

it's okay,

jj