No Pressure Though

When I woke this morning Hensley hovering above me with her new backpack she got from her Library Readiness class saying, "Mom, wake up so we can do school." 

(She also brought me cereal for the first time in life, see very cute pic.)

Usually I have coffee first, plan my day, and do the dishes before we do school. But, Hensley was so excited, I switched things up. She's really excited about her workbooks, she can do them quickly, so I let her do page after page. I can see what's easy for her, and then when we come across a more difficult concept, I keep an eye on her expression. I lean in and give her clues when it get difficult, I can see the uncertainty there, the way she's on the edge of giving up. 

But, I encourage her, and help her.

I think I've always known people need encouragement when they're facing something hard, but I think sometimes people need an extra hand to too. They need grace. They need a bridge from what they know to what they'll know once the task is over.

But, this is not the format I want for this new way of writing out my blog posts. Let's get back on track: 

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I guess I laid out tomorrow today. But, I gotta manifest, so I'll do it again? Here we go: 

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Today I happily roll with the punches. 

I wake, do school with Hensley and get coffee in the midst of that. I eye the kitchen floor and sweep real quick, I don't know, it just makes me feel better to do it before other things. The dishes are there in need of doing, but I'm not deterred. 

I settled in front of my computer. I write out my day with a little smile on my face and "Start Your Day" YouTube music video. It's light and upbeat, giving me hope of the day.

I reheat my coffee for the second time, but that's alright. 

After I've blogged, I'll cruise through Indeed, but not worried about it. I'm not sending my resume out until Monday. Right now, I'm manifesting what I'd say in intervies, that way I'm going to be confident. My mind will be clear and calm enough for me ot hear the quesitons- I know the anwsers because I'm know the freaking industry. 

I dive into editing the second half of book 2, I've got one last chapter and I'm so excited to write it. Last night I made some notes to change the structure a bit-- I'm going to see if I have it in me to change that around. When I've exchausted my interest in Book 2, I dive into the short story and poems for the Moon anothology. I'm excited to submit, my iniitial feeling is there's no way it'd make it in, but it's worth trying because... What if, right? 

I understand I'm afraid to work on them, if I can't do this morning, I'll do this afternoon when my brain has a chance to settled. I'm not going to beat myself up about it. 

When I feel stuck with eidting, I'll get up and listen to The Office Ladies podcast or Mel Robbin's book the High Five Habit while I do dishes. I'll change out the laundry and do what I can to tidy around the house. 

Once I get a chance to sit down again I'll play around wtih my store. Just one thing to move it forward. I'm not going to be emotional about it, maybe I'll stay aware of what I'm feeling as it I do it, believe that I can get it to a place where I'm confident about sending it into the world. No pressure though, not yet. m

After that I'll figure out a lunch for Hensley. We'll get water for her, she's been sick and needs it. 

After lunch, I'll go right back into either editing book 2 or getting into the submissions. I'll feel a little bit of pressure because it's due Monday. I need to check out how to submit, maybe submit before Monday? I mean, only if I'm feeling it, because Monday is the deadline, I've got till Monday.

I don't freak out about it. (haha)

After I've edited, I do the dishes and tidy a little more, my mom is coming over tonight and it'll be nice to be ahead on everything. No pressure though, Justin can help me if I'm overwhelmed with any part of the cleaning today. He's a good husband like that. 

Tonight, I'm go to our family group. I don't have anxiety about it. I know some things happened in the last few days that have given me anxiety, but I process Mel Robbin's anchor thought, I let it keep my feet on the ground as I approach family group tonight. It works so well that I hardly remember I need an anchor thought, but even if I need the anchor thought- it still works. I let Justin handle the parts I'm nervous about. 

(P.S. I get a moment this afternoon to shower real quick, nothing to worry about.) 

It's a good day today.

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it's okay,

JJ