Leave Me to Figure Me Out

I'm so tired. And it all hurts. And why am I facing all this shit. And why can't I figure out how to deal with it like a freaking adult and I think I'm sick, but there's no one to help me.

Someone help me. 

But they can't and it hurts. It hurts my head and my arms and my back and my brain. My brain is a mass of grey nothing and I'm stuck. 

Listen to this piano and let it happen. let it all happen. I don't even care anymore. 

I'm going to live and feel and spring forward into life. 

Leave me to figure me out. 

Let me figure me out. 

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I'm alright, guys. Just free writing with my eyes closed.

it's okay,

JJ